Sonnet from the Hospital

My lights are flickering in the darkness

I don't know where I am or where to go

My soul is all covered in full blackness

Can I hang on for the rest of the show?

Drugs used to always ease my troubled mind,

Bottles of alcohol by my bedside

Anymore relief I could not e'en find

Hallucinations won't ever subside.

Dark-haired angel headed hipsters howl, howled!

Haunted at night, don't even let me sleep,

My entire life has now become fouled

Don't know what to do but can't be a sheep.

Must find a way to break the long kinked chain,

Of misery, grief, sorrow, always pain.

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